Quick update: My guides... and my feelings within.

I wanted to send an update quickly...

The other night after I made my post... a glimmer of sparkle appeared in my room. It did catch me off guard as it was high above the wall but I know it was all that was needed for me to see. I gave a quick smile as I realized that as much as I like to sometimes play the 'lonely' game... I know I am not. Why is it so easy to forget our connections daily? I know I am awakening to living this life daily but sometimes in the middle of my thoughts, I forget. I simply forget. It is as if I forget to only discover the pleasures of finding again. It is as if finding and remembering are little packets of gifts that I send to myself... in moments of despair. I guess that's the human life with it's tribulations and challenges. I am thankful that I am connected... I also got the idea or the thought which came to me afterwards that perhaps I have been integrating many aspects of myself.

Hence, it is all within me and the thought of wanting to see it outside of me still harbours on the idea that I don't believe that it is all me or that I am the creator of the my reality and universe. I find so many meanings in every day life... from the smallest things to the larger things. All this knowledge and analyzing and deciphering really makes me appreciate this lifetime here. I am at times just living in my own reality. How lucky am I? But we are all lucky in actuality because we get to play the roles that we always wanted...whether we know it consciously or not.

We play the roles that we play because we believe this is the way or one of the ways to best benefit ourselves and the world. I sometimes feel like we are energy in a petri dish...there but not there. Seen and not seen and only visible to those who know where to look. I am letting my thoughts run right now and this is what I am thinking. I usually try not to edit my thoughts unless for the perusal spelling errors. I like to write down my thoughts because this is what I think about in merely 5 minutes... Imagine all day except for when I am doing my projects or sleeping or socializing. It's fun though! :)

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The reason also why I wanted to post an update today was because I had a strange feeling during noon. I felt like I was hungry? Or... I was not sure but I was thinking about eating a particular type of food. Then suddenly this burst of happiness and energy expanded from my stomach area and upwards towards my face as I suddenly smiled. I cannot really pinpoint exactly if I have felt this kind of energy coming from me before...but it was a warm feeling (not physical) but a warm like feeling that was gentle yet powerful.

It felt like a wave of endorphins rushed over me and I was smiling from side to side. I just wanted to remember this moment because I suddenly now had the moment of clarity that it may of came from something more. I forgot about the chakras but remembered them just now. Indeed I feel like it did come from the third chakra and that is the solar plexus. The solar plexus chakra (Googled link) is where I just learned that is it the centre of our willpower.

Excerpt below taken from link above.

The Solar Plexus Chakra, located between the navel and solar plexus, is the core of our personality, our identity, of our ego.

The third chakra is the center of willpower. While the Sacral chakra seeks pleasure and enjoyment, the third chakra is all about the perception of who you are.

The gift of this chakra is sensing your personal power, being confident, responsible, and reliable.

The third chakra is the center of your self-esteem, your willpower, self-discipline, as well as warmth in your personality.

The energy of this chakra allows you to transform inertia into action and movement. It allows you to meet challenges and mover forward in your life.

Ofcourse I have felt energy coming from within my tummy before but this time it was different. It was all of a sudden and it caught me off guard because I was watching a drama online. I wonder if it's because I recently starting utilizing the tools of Ho'oponopono earnestly. How am I using this? Anytime I see suffering, hate, or anything in my view of the world that I see as not right, I quietly say this: "I am sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. Thank you."

Why do I say this? I believe it's because in my belief system. I see that we are the viewers of our lives. Therefore, we are the ones who make the judgements and the condemnation. This does not mean that I allow this to continue happening but I take the moment to think outside of myself. I connect with the bigger meaning and the possible reasons behind the acts. I make a discernment that while this is not cool for me...I will not let it affect my memories and cells. I know human beings are not perfect. In fact, no one is and that is the reality of things. 

We do things out of reactive impulses and especially when we are not connected to our true inner selves. We grow up in situations or choose to choose to be in situations sometimes for whatever reason. I don't forget but I choose not to let it affect me daily. I forgive because I choose to cancel out all the karma and the negative energy that comes within harbouring a possible growth in hate, hopelessness, and fear. I love you because if I don't love you then I don't truly love myself. I want to love myself because I know it is a reflection of myself to the universe that I want to embody while I am here. 

Could you imagine if we as a whole nation of beings coming together to express sorry, forgiveness, and above all love? Just imagine it for a second... and then increase to 20 seconds. Imagine that and we would be one step closer to what we wish for the world and for our children. 

I guess you can say... I think the way you speak to yourself and to others daily make a profound effect in your life. I don't know how to explain the physics of things and I am not going to even start. All I know is... life is an experiment and I like to try things with the most positive intention. It is fun and exciting to me! 

When I was young... I never understood the idea of being a monk. I thought...what a waste of time. What is the point of sitting and meditating all day? Why not take action? Why not make a difference? It was also my initial journey of questioning and of why certain things were happening in the world. I was not aware of the idea of 'energy' much less than what I only learned in Grade 8 science about atoms and protons. Why did they not teach us more than that? Why if everything was made up of atomic elements...then why weren't we taught the connection to ourselves? Of course, I understand why. The teachers did not know...they regurgitated what was taught to them or what was in the curriculum. They were young teachers anyways, straight out of university and just doing their job. Why would they question what was already been taught? They may even be judged for bringing elements of their beliefs in their teachings. So, I understand and I forgive them for their circumstances. 

I think looking back... I always felt a sense of responsibility. Ever since I was in Grade 4, I always thought of myself as someone who would make a difference in the world. I had such a need to help others and to put myself out there to make a difference. Somehow down the road, I forgot about all that...and I was much more simple minded too back then. I excelled and I was inspiring to my fellow classmates. I'm happy that I was able to inspire them as they would later tell me. I never doubted my confidence and I was never cocky about it. I worked hard. The reason why was because I cared and I worked hard. I was bullied but I never showed hate towards my bullies...I confronted them or remained true to me despite the physical pains. Beneath all of that, I put myself 100% in everything that I did. 

And then I forgot. I know I keep mentioning about me forgetting but I did. I forgot who I really was...and I fell into depression. Because I started to doubt myself and compared myself to others. I started to let delusions take over and procrastinate. I lost my sense of childlikeness who believed in everything and in others. I forgot my connection to myself... 

Update while re-reading my post: I realized that we cannot blame others for what we do not know and did not know at that time. It is our responsibility to seek the answers that speak our truth and to remember our connection to others and ourselves. 

But monks do make a difference in the world. They balance out all the negative energy that is spread in pockets of the world... in face they envelop a blanket over all of this and putting out an energy of love, peace, and compassion. Look at the Dalai lama and you will know what I mean. Everyone plays an important role no matter how big or small. I now realize that this is so important...and so I am thankful for those who put away their materials needs to benefit the humankind. I won't be a monk in this lifetime but I'm sure a part of my multidimensional self has been. 

That's the thing... it's about connecting and remembering our multidimensional selves. When we are able to recognize this we will realize that everything is us. If we speak loving kind words to everything, we are speaking loving kind words to ourselves. Whatever happened in the past is the past and as cliche as that sounds it is literally in the past. I think I have been through a lot...there's a lot of secrets that for sure could of overtaken my life story but I don't choose to live in that victimhood. Why? It is too tiring to be in that life... that is why. I just want to explore my best potential. Just remember, everyone is or has gone through shit. It is never as easy as it seems and if it was you I hope you remember how much you've gone through and how much you are loved. 

But alas, I'm happy that I still have memories of my younger self which I am choosing some to shape my over identity. I do believe that we are always changing and growing. In fact, I do not like stability. I feel like stability to me means that I am constantly changing and growing. I do feel like I do not live the life of many others... in fact I am coming into terms with this. I chose to live the life that I want to and I need to keep going. :) 

I completely went off tangent but that's okay. I write this to remind myself of what I was like and where I am. I write this as a mental note that everything's going to be okay. And if it does help someone...then I am very thankful for this.

I just want to note a few videos that I have been watching just today to put together some of my thoughts. I hope you'll give them a try.

Goosebump Feelings from these videos:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHcZjk0YtKs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5xZyvbxUeY

Life's Eternal Liberator - Matt Kahn/TrueDivineNature.com

What coincidence! Thank you for the inspiration and reminder. Just the video I wanted to hear from my previous thoughts.

Listen to the above talk with this mediation video below. :)

Hello!

I feel like I have been doing bi-yearly updates! Why, hello again! Saying the word hello reminds me of Adele's current top song 'Song'. I just love the timbre of her voice... it's emotional, powerful, yet understating. I just love the 'Hello' part.

It's been awhile and I just had the spur of the moment thought to update on this blog.

Life has been interesting. I have sprung forward into following my passions and it's been a lot of fun and a lot of work when you're your own boss. Besides this and when I have downtime, my thoughts do tend to form and ponder about a few things...

Some of the interesting thoughts I have are...

"Why am I doing this?" - Do I need a reason such as passion in my story?
"Why do I have to do this?"- Could I just not sleep all day?
"Why work so hard?" - Do I need to do something to prove that I am capable or responsible in this world?
"Why don't I just follow the crowd and get a regular job?" - Life could be mundane but at least you get weekends off...
"What am I doing here?" - I am my body and I have my mind. But what is my existence here at this time?

It's interesting because... I have asked these questions when I was depressed too. Now, I am coming from a perspective of not being depressed so I find this interesting too.

Bashar talks about following your passion and then if it's not exciting then move on to the next. I find that this is very exhilarating but when you follow your passion you must also share this passion with others to keep the moment going and connect with others who feel the same.

I guess... lately sometimes I feel just numb in the world. I do see so much going on but I remind myself that I am the only me here at this time and how can I make my time here worthwhile. How can I live my life fully? Then I came to realize recently that I still have a fear...and while I have recognized it too, I still seem to be choosing it as part of my life story. I intend to let it go soon but there's something there that is intriguing too. I ask myself... why am I afraid that I won't be able to make it alone? I know I am not physically alone but I mean in the earnest of things like having my own home and owning my own things. For some reason, I have a fear of not being able to support myself. Yet, I go out there and start my own business to support myself too. It's very ironic and it contradicting. I know I have so much support and perhaps this is an issue to do with money. I think a part of me wants more money yet a part of me relies on myself too much to make the money. I am curious to make more money not because I am money hungry but because I think it's something that I genuinely am a bit afraid of. Money is just energy and I know I can attract. I am easily amazed by how some people attract this type of abundance in their life. I know I can attract it but I'm not sure where my fear is... perhaps is it because I have never once had a full time job in my life? Yes, it seems weird because in society to not have a full time job is like... what are you doing? But at the same time... I am surviving. I don't want to wish upon myself disaster in order for me to grow... I get that there are different realities that I can choose and I am not interested in those life altering moments. I know I can let go of this fear...

But in the midst of all this, I am busy and having fun! I also realized that I have stopped relying on listening to anything... I know it's so weird. Maybe I am applying all that I have learned now... but I find myself not needing all the information. Yes, once in awhile I do but I don't rely on it. I just go on with my day and live in the moment. Which also worries me because I sometimes feel like I am not connected. For instance, I don't get any more visions. I don't see or feel anything. In fact, I just feel like I am alone. This is not a negative feeling or a depressing feeling. I just feel still and for someone who thinks and rambles a lot... this empty space is interesting. I am also thankful that I am forgetful which makes emotional experiences less toxicating.

Has anyone gone to this state? I question this because I have created my own reality. I constantly say, "No, thank you" or "thank you" to many circumstances aloud. For someone who relies so much on outer acknowledgement, I somehow now feel like man... I have to acknowledge myself. I mean I'm sure my guardian angels and so forth spiritual mentors are around but I don't sense or feel anyone. I'm not going to lie...it makes me feel a little sad. Hence, I sometimes wonder if I am doing the right thing... I really hope so. I just want to be the best me!

I have now even openly allowed myself to open my third eye. But I don't see anything..or I have created such a strong reality that I just filter through all that. I just want to say 'Hello' and tell all my guides that I miss you and I hope you're doing well. I am doing okay but it would be nice to reconnect some day. I know with my clearer mind that I am very focused... I just hope I am living the best life that I can. I just want to help and be the best version I can for the world. I want to be living proof of what my dreams and beliefs are. I don't want to die a hero but to live a life that was fulfilling. I cherish so many things... because I don't know if I'll be back on Earth the next time around. Well, actually I have decided not to return. But I'm sure in parallel realities I'll still be around. Until then, I really cherish all human beings, animals, plants, and everything. I just cherish these special memories because everything is just a blink away.

In case I do become really wealthy one day, I just want to say that I take it as a humbling experience to further my gifts and other's gifts. I intend to use it to benefit society in the most positive way and to create opportunities and experiences that uplift humanity and all beings. I am very strong minded and heart minded and I am not easily manipulated. This is because I choose not to be and I know I cannot help or save everyone. But everyone deserves a chance...good or bad we are all here to learn and grow. I am sending a message to my future self...to remember that I did manifest it and it is now my responsibility to use it well and to share this knowledge that they too can create for themselves. I'm sorry if I am not able to help all that asks...but know that your asking means that you want a better life for yourself and therefore your asking will lead to many more solutions to your challenges. I have utmost respect for those who are not afraid to ask for help and I forgive all who may not think it is fair. If we vibe on the same level, I'm more than willing to help. If we can work together to create a more loving world, then let's connect. Remember, it is my choice and you too have choices. Love, peace, and compassion to all who are kind, caring, and graceful.

I hope you are all living your life and even if it's tough...stay positive. Everyone is unique and special. I wish you all well. :)

XoXo

Just going to free flow and write...

Hello Well-wishers,

My mind is filled with mixed emotions. I am noticing that I wrote mind instead of heart... Hm... It is a daily challenge and I just want to say that it is hard. What's hard? Starting up two passionate careers of mine at the same time and growing it. I feel like I birth twins and I have a lot of mixed emotional feelings. I guess I want to sort them out.

1. It's friggin' difficult and challenging.

The beginning will always be hard. I am aware of the fruits of labour... yet this time it is different. Why? Because my destiny is fully in my hands. I do not have a pay check to fall upon and for the first time in my life... I realized that I just become self-employed. The words self-employed and entrepreneur are still slightly foreign in my reality. Have I really made a claim to the world that I am worthy of my own future? Have I made a claim to the world that I am now responsible for my own future. These thoughts are nerve racking but I am humbled and thankful. It's friggin' challenging because there is a lot to do and more than I can ever imagine. I just want to I guess vent a bit... it's a lot of work but it's worth it because I am doing what I love. But, it's a lot of work and I put my heart into everything. I know I can handle challenges... going through depression, rejection, and all that stuff makes me appreciate my own existence and others who are able to overcome and thrive.

2. Following your passion and Bashar's passion principal.

If you were to ask me this question, are you following your passion? My answer will be, "yes". Last year I made a promise to myself that I would follow my passions. No matter how difficult or how unknown it may be, I told myself that I would live out my excitement. I want to cry at this thought because I am still human and I still waiver from time to time. What if I just find a job? Be like everyone else? Work it up? Prove myself to others...? But when I am at my lowest, I manage to dig myself out of my hole and remember what my boyfriend told me and that is to appreciate everything that I have, to acknowledge how far I have come, and to be thankful that you can perceive the ability to do this. I sometimes wonder, is this the right thing to do? Will it support me? I know deep down that the universe will support any of my endeavours but do I fully believe in myself? I believe I do but sometimes the doubts and urgency creep in. Then I wonder whose timeline am I following? Is it the end of the world if things don't work out? It's not. Then I remember all the human beings and animals around the world who are suffering... and I know that I am in a privileged place. I feel emotional because I believe in myself wholeheartedly but everything takes time and I know I can do it. Can you imagine that this is how my thoughts work all day? It's been 10 minutes and I have already felt all these emotions. Maybe this is part of a life of a multi-passionate entrepreneur... it's up and down and twisty and windy and just all over your face. I just want to be an example of what my philosophy of life is. How am I an effective teacher if I am only a preacher? To me, a fulfilled life is one where you live your truths and you share your gifts with the world.

3. Shifting Shift Shift Shift

All of my changes in my reality has been because of one major thing that I have been practising. Do you know what this is? Shifting. I will be honest. I sometimes linger longer on certain feelings... not sure why but I guess to feel it out and to experience it. But I know the general rule is to shift into the frequency and vibration that I prefer. How? Begin by altering some muscles in your body... this could be breathing, smiling, walking, or some sort of physical movement. Maybe it's connecting with someone, hugging, or sleeping. As you hold on this kind of physical movement without too much thought, you are already shifting away from your current thoughts. And if you waive back and forth, keep working on this. The actual shift is when you have those recurrent thoughts again and you choose to react to it differently than you did the first time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dM3VP7Tn0OQ

This video of Bashar makes me feel like I do need to work on my inner workings and be up to date with the energies which is another reason why I am going for my dreams.

4. Struggles with should, would, and could...

I know these words are not the most effective words as they often lead to living in the past and not being in the present moment. I feel like I am close to another break through but I am feeling out these feelings and working through them. Integrating them as best as I can. I am aware that what's suppose to happen will have happened and what's not is not a big deal. Sometimes I am so hard on myself that I do paralyze my mental state and I get sick and I don't want to do anything. Sometimes I keep thinking that I should be here right now but it almost seems like I went through a lot in order to appreciate this moment. The most wonderful thing that keeps my spirit up is probably the amount of support that I am receiving from my family and friends. No one has undermined me and in fact all I get a praises and unconditional support. The pressure is just on myself and how much I want it to succeed. I cannot wait to have an assistant one day... I feel like I have so many ideas and projects to contribute to bettering the world and I am working to get there too. Every week I am blessed with gifts... whether it is a kind encouragement or a physical thing that has appeared when I need it. It does make life so much more magical. I want to give back to those who have been so kind and generous. I hope they know how much I appreciate all of this. It's hard when I am so self-absorbed in my business and this is a critical time in my life. Well, critical as in I have lots of opportunities to create and succeed.

It's weird. Sometimes I feel like I probably can do a Ted Talk one day. I will have to boil down my thoughts and ideas but until then I will just keep doing what I am doing. I am going to treat myself nicely this week... sleep and travel is not the only way to treat myself. I want to feel well and being sick for over a week and a half has definitely put a stop and toll on my energy.

I also think about the future and how I want my life to be in several years when I envision myself being engaged and married... how will that life look like? We all have 24 hours a day..so how do I manage it all? I guess that is the next level of challenge that will come up before having children. =P To be honest, having children is not what I feel is challenging... it's more of making sure myself, my husband, and my family and friends are well taken cared of. I never really had these thoughts before but they just crept up just now. There's still so much more to experience and I am truly thankful for being alive at this time in Earth. While disclosure may not happen during my early years, I am certain that it will happen. Until then, I am sure there will be alternative ways to exist. At this moment, I certainly do feel that I am integrating into a 4 dimensional being. I do not buy into all the 3D realities because I know there's more to it then just what we perceive in this reality. I no longer associate myself to too much drama. It's just not my vibe and I have matured enough to be able to excuse myself from those type of situations. Yes, there is and still are a lot of tragedies happening on Earth but this is the polarized theme that we are experiencing. We will experience the most challenging and suffering experiences as a collective and we will also experience unconditional love and gratitude. When you realize that both realities exist, you can make the choice of which reality you want to be a part of. Could you imagine if the whole world just shifted just by changing their attitude or one belief. The idea of segregation too will always make it you against me instead of us. I just don't vibe with that. Even now, I am not looking for people who are competitive. I am looking to work with people who are supportive and who are confident in their abilities to stand true to themselves. There is more than enough for everyone and we do not need to fight. This is not to say that competition is negative, in fact competition has accelerated our modes of living, thinking, and execution of things to make our lives better. Why do I work with children? There is an aspect of childhood that lives in the dreams.. the ideas of infinite possibilities... the realm of confidence and conscience which I find inspiring. I remember Bashar saying that if everyone can tap into their inner child's imagination then we would all be non-fearful of conscious creation or our own true self. I believe this is a lot of babbling but maybe you get what I mean. When you go through spirituality, you will witness the goods and the not so goods. Instead of judging immediately, be neutral to the situation and see if it fits your reality. If not, leave it. If so, integrate it. That's it. Each moment we become more ourselves if we allow ourselves to continuously be curious, open-minded, and loving.

Whenever I write post here, I just start crying. It's really a mix of emotions and I feel like the whole universe wants to support me. I am aware that I just need to chill out and not take life so seriously. To be honest, I just want to be the best version of me. I know there's a lot more abundance coming and I am preparing for more output. So in the meantime, I do need to feed my soul with spirituality, positivity, good food, and keep my body healthy and energized so I can do more. Without the latter, I just feel drained. I remember Michelle Pham (beauty guru) mentioning that if we continuously give, we may feel drained. And we need to learn how to balance that out so that we have enough energy to keep going. She's such a real inspiration to me and I remember reading her blog when she was just in high school. I may be late in doing my own thing but I am still inspired.

How is my depression going?

I have shifted enough universes to say that I am not depressed. Having said that, remnants of my own self-worth do prop up especially when time gets hard and I hear my ego telling me to just hide and not do anything... to the point of ignoring and not dealing with my emotions. So I remind myself to ask for the angels and guides for help and I send myself positive energy. Then I ask for the angels to clear my energy so that it's not some sort of debris that is floating around and that I have picked up because I am low in energy and need some energy. As a reminder, everything is energy. Even thoughts and beliefs are energy that is floating around... Our body is an amazing antennae that can pick up certain frequencies so we are not in like 20 different realities at once. So sometimes other peoples thoughts you might unconsciously pick it up or from someone walking by, someone chatting at the coffee shop, watching t.v., reading a book, or being around people who are low in energy or doing hurtful things to themselves. I know there's a lot going on... personally I have even encountered low spirits who attach to people who use substance abuse. So... I just pray for everyone. There's nothing to be scared of because at the end of the day. Think about this... Imagine you're looking at the mirror and this is inspired by Bashar. Imagine you're looking at a mirror and you notice yourself sad... you do not yell at the mirror to change it to happy. Because the mirror is a reflection of you and so for any change to occur, you need to smile. The same goes to now stepping back and seeing other people in the mirror. You're looking at them and they are not being kind or they may be judgemental. Heck, you're probably making a quick judgement anyways. The truth of the matter is while perhaps they do have a judgement about you, the question you have to ask yourself is do you accept this judgement? If so, then you will continue reflecting that judgement in unbelievable scenarios with them. However, to be honest... most people when they look at the mirror, they usually are looking at themselves first. They might take a glance at you, but most people are focused on their own reflection. So, don't be discouraged if someone is not flashing a smile at you. They might be going through some tough challenging stuff and you would not know unless they told you. There's a million things that can be firing up in people's minds. Now think about this, when you do smile inward and really an authentic smile appears and you notice your smiling reflection, someone else may catch a glimpse of your smile. And if you look around and you are being your true self and smiling at the moment, do you know what that creates? A domino affect. Curiosity will sprung and the people who want to be apart of this domino affect will instantly line up and reflect that smile back to you. In this one moment, because you were being your true self, you showed them that they can also be their true self. That they are accepted and that they are acknowledged just as you acknowledged yourself. The idea is that domino effects are not as hard to create and it really only requires a gentle nudge. It does not require force and no one is forcing anyone to do anything. Like what Mahatma Gandhi said... "In a gentle way, you can shake the world." This can begin with a smile or it can begin with a message, a quote, a art, a video...whatever creative ways.

If you do not believe in your abilities or gifts right now, then that's okay. Today might not be your best day but there's always tomorrow and rather for eternity you can be working on this. You will just come back and work on this until you shift. And you know what? I have decided that's its okay for some people to be stuck. You want the best for them but what's best for them is when they decide that they want to be free. What's free? It depends on your belief. If it sways to the negative, then you can stay there. If it swings positive, then you will know the feeling. Freedom to me means financial freedom, creative freedom, label free, and peace... like the gentle wind blowing in your face. I remember during my darkest moments where I was crying in my room many times, I would see tinkers of light. In a gentle way, I (another part of myself) was sending myself reminders that there is light out of this darkness. I remember vividly and perhaps I was meant to go through this journey. I know now that being curious and open-minded is what has helped me get to where I was. Also, knowing that I'm part of something greater was also helpful. I just want to say that these are my thoughts at this moment. They are ever changing and evolving as I am presently here on Earth. I say it in this way because I do have beliefs that I am visitor and that I have a lot of friends or multiples lives who I have enlisted for help as I am here on this journey. I want to just extend this gratitude to the invisible and the visible and to the universe and beyond. All I know is that love is what transcends all boundaries and I also know that love is expressed in many different ways. I will try to remind myself that most everybody is trying their best to be loving in ways that they know how. Our environment, our cultures, our background and many of those perspectives is a way that we are learning to love. Love is an energy and you are love right now because if you were not loved then you would not be able to find this post or read about this. Furthermore, love is all around you when you begin to appreciate the simpleness and beauty of life. Just look at the sunset, listen to the ocean, visit a waterfall, or go somewhere you've never explored before and you will see the love that emanates from these natural environments. Whoever created them were sure passionate to create a beautiful place so that we can find solace and love. There are many realities... which one do you choose? In the end, it's all in your head. But know that is real because of your experiences and your emotions. It sure is a once in a life time opportunity because next time you might come back as something else... maybe a tree, a bug, another being? Who knows... I feel like my true self or higher mind is speaking through me. I may not have all the answers to the problems in the world but I sure can remind myself to shift to finding answers. It's been an hour now so it's time for me to rest up.

Thank you for listening and for your time. If you have any feedback, please feel free to leave it down below or any questions. I know a lot of people are going through tough times and I also know a lot of people are living their lives. It's not really about where you should be... but where are you now? What is it in your life that you would like to change? How long will you give yourself before you are able to change? If you cannot, will you give up? How about instead of giving up to just go with the flow and just do it. Showing up at the doorstep is better than never being able to perceive the doors. A lot of people no matter what age still have a lot of opportunities in life. Never ever give up and persevere. It's a lot of work and I am not going to tell you that it is easy. But, all the work that you do on yourself will contribute to a world that you prefer... and you will see the same people but when they perceive you they too will reflect to you another side of themselves. And if not, be gentle and let them be. They too are going through their own experiences. Nothing is permanent but everything is as real as you make it to be.

Goodnight. <3 <3 <3

Much love.

Updates!

Hello Well-wishers!

It's been a long time since I have updated.

A lot has happened and I am noticing how quickly time to is moving by. Lately, I feel like I have been shifting a lot and through multiple different universes. Of course, I know I am shifting realities daily but once you unlock some of the negative or not so productive belief systems, I do really feel like I am now making quantum leaps. I am very intrigued by this idea of shifting into your desired realities and quantum leaping or what we shall call it miracles. I think it's an exciting process and one does not need too much work or permission to make it happen.

This weekend... I unlocked one of my ongoing life "issues". The need for "approval" for what I am doing and who I am as a person. I know I'm an adult now but I did not realize how much of this actually affected me. Perhaps it's because I was not clear on my goals and I was shy before because I was not sure of myself but now that I have realized through conversations with friends and colleagues that I have been waiting for approval. I do feel like I can let that go. I have proven to myself that I am and I can handle all of that I am creating. Why would I create something that I cannot handle? In fact, the fastest way to grow is to do it. It is to apply what I have learned and take responsibility and go for it. I'm not going to lie to you but I am going for my dreams. I feel so lucky to be able to allow myself to do this and to be emotionally supported by others. I truly believe that anything can happen. I am also aware of the fact that I am constantly creating my reality. A lot of my dreams are coming true because I am making them happen. Even without experience, I am going for it. Even when people doubt, I don't care anymore. I do not need anyone's approval anymore which makes me proud of myself. I finally can let go some of the people's judgements. It feels so free to think that anything can happen. Can you imagine this? I am not going to lie to you but it's been an interesting and difficult journey to get to this point. But, I do not regret it and I see everyone and everything as a teacher. I know I have quantum leaped quite a few multiple realties and I am choosing consciously how I want to live my life. I just have to remember that I am fully supported by the universe and that miracles do happen not only to me but for others. I have so much to give and I feel like I am in the right emotional state of mind. I love what I am doing and I am thankful for this opportunity to create and to continue with my endeavours. I'm having fun!

World Wind of Events...

Hello Well-Wishers!

It's been almost half a year since I last shared what's been going on... and a lot has happened!

Here are several things that I have noticed about myself:

- Whatever I think, feel, or desire happens! I have learned to be conscious of what my thoughts are at every moment. Sometimes it may not happen right at that moment, but things will happen in like 2 days or so. It's amazing. It's like a miracle. It's supernatural. It's mind-blowing.

- Being super busy again is great! It keeps my mind occupied and I feel like I am contributing to an overall great picture. However, I need to be careful of my health. In the past I would work extremely hard and then would crash. Well, guess what? This happened a couple of days ago and I got myself sick through a severe allergic reaction to fried foods. It shocked my body and even though I am at my busiest time, I have decided to take several days off to recover. Nothing is more important to me than health at this moment. My mental well-being is important as well as my physical well-being. Things will be okay if I am gone for several days. It is not the end of the world.

- A lot of dreams I have never thought of happening so soon are coming... and I am learning how to juggle and manage these new transitions. For once in my life, I have goals. Yes, I have goals and plans. It's kind of amazing since I was severely depressed in a previous alternate reality for several years... so I feel so blessed to even be able to have the foresight to make my dreams into a reality. This only means another dream that I have in mind is also coming into fruition. I do not know when but I know it is coming because these other dreams are manifesting. I am so happy, ecstatic, and thankful. I know I am not the brightest person on Earth but I will tell you this, I know in my heart that I have the purest intentions. What I receive I put it out back into the universe. I do not intend to horde or to accumulate... I share and I know I radiate love. I just have a lot of love to give and if I can manifest more things due to my belief systems then why not? I am blessed and for the amount of time I am here on Earth, I want to make a difference that will last for generations. I don't know how it will come about but I know whatever it is that I am doing... I just keep going. It's a lot of hard work but it's my passions and I just keep doing what I can do.

- I have sort of created my own mental bubble world. I know it's sort of a weird concept but I empowered. I also want to still include all of my spiritual galactic higher well friends and family of any. I feel like they do reach out to me and they know I love to read so they come to me through online videos and articles. I know that's the way I best receive information and I am thankful for having the ability to be able to discern truths and to not buy into fear. I am thankful for the ability to see multiple perspectives at once and to be able to integrate it all. It is a knowingness that I speak of...not literally a sense in the specifics. I know we are all interrelated and the point is the integrate all of the different parts of us together. Yes, there are certain parts of the past that may linger but I have decided to not let that reflect upon my life. Yes, I will accept that it has happened perhaps but no I will not let it continue to fuel me to do certain things. For what? So what? Why are we so entrenched in other people's battles... when we fear we go out to seek for approval and that usually means having support. Having support is great and I am eternally thankful for my galactic families support but I know I cannot depend my life on them.. ultimately it is my choice. No one can make anyone happy, but yourself. Even your family or your partner... no one can. When you truly do love yourself, this will be reflected on how others treat you. When they say they love you, take it as a reflection of the purest form reflecting back to you. Are you reflecting love onto others or hate? Well, you get what you put out so I'm just saying to be aware. Also, you do make a difference. Even if you do not think you do, yes you do. Never underestimate your own strength and use that as an excuse to just scurry past life because no matter what circumstances you been through, you did make the choice to come to Earth so own it. It's a hard lesson to learn but at some point through this entire spiritual evolution process, I did make a choice to come back here. I do not understand the multiple facets of this world however, I have the bigger picture in mind. Perhaps, I was lucky in that I could see it from the bigger picture but that's the key... to keep the bigger picture in mind and to not be so nick picky about our neighbours. I'm not perfect and I have said my fair share but I know at the end of the day, they are who they are because of who they continue to choose to be whether unconsciously or consciously and it is my job to first forgive them for their foolishness and then to love them because they also are a part of me. And I have to ask for forgiveness because I judged them to be foolish because if I judge them to be foolish then I must think a part of me is foolish. Perhaps sometimes I am, so forgive, let go, and just love.

There's a lot going on... and I actually manifested my first illness this past weekend. I had a bad feeling but I decided to not follow my intuition and instead got sick. Maybe my desire to have a break was more powerful than work so hence I manifested a situation where I could allow myself an opportunity to take a break. If a break is necessary, then I shall take it. Life is too short to push myself... for what? It's my life and I only have one that I know right now that I have conscious control over. I am so thankful, lucky, and extremely appreciative of the universe and all this that I am able to create thus far!

It's Thanksgiving weekend and I am so thankful for all the relationships that I am reforming, my friends, my family, my boyfriend, and my colleagues... and all the strangers that I encounter. I always meet lovely people nowadays and you know it's true... a smile changes everything so always smile!

I'm looking back and I am truly proud of my accomplishments thus far... From having or being nothing a year ago to now being an entrepreneur. I just feel so blessed to been giving so many opportunities and to have support reflected back to me. I know now it's up to me to continue with my dreams and to keep dreaming and bringing them into reality. I realized that I am currently volunteering at least 15 hours a week... That's quite a lot! But I love what I do and I know volunteering and giving back is what makes your life more abundant.

Remember, it all starts with a desire...and then let it happen. Let go of expectations and live your life through excitements.

Thanks for listening everyone! Take care. <3

Since my last post... my life has changed.

Drastically.

And it is time for me to reflect and share these experiences.

I am at the moment feeling a plethora of emotions...

Honoured
Grounded
Thankful
Appreciative
Blessed
Loved

And... this amazing feeling is pretty much like heaven on Earth. I finally have an idea of what it means now... and while I am still human here. I know I can create that reality and bring forth it into my awareness. Each day, I have to say I am blessed with the knowledge and capability to truly follow my dreams. And it all starts with a particular perspective, in fact... what perspective are you choosing now?

For now, I just am in the moment and I will just leave it for now.

I feel empowered and yknow what the best and greatest gift in the world is...besides unconditional love? The ability to choose what I want to think, feel, and believe in my mind.

Now, that is absolute freedom.

This amazing Tarot spread reading that I did for myself online really affirms everything that I am feeling but in real life it's even more ecstatic and amazing.

Please have a look below and I will provide more descriptions.

From: http://www.freetarot.com/

The first card in your reading represents the past, revealing influences that have led to your current situation.

The Knight of Cups

In the past position, the Knight of Cups stands for a man of romance and fanciful ideals. The Knight is not a fighter but a passionate lover who may come to us in the form of a relationship. If he represents an actual person, the Knight holds beauty in the highest respect and provides solace for the heartache of others. If the Knight is not a person, then he points to a need to take a sensitive approach and understand the emotional motivations of others. We may have just received a confession of love or feel a sudden shift to a more compassionate approach.

When the Knight of Cups lands in the past position, a man of grace—a gallant white knight may have saved us in the nick of time! At this moment, we may seek the finer things in life and focus on all that is beautiful.

Why does this ring true to my heart? Well, remember in my previous post where I mentioned my boyfriend in my last post? Well, he's always been supportive but something happened to myself internally and I have become a different person. I have become a person who is determined to overcome fears and not only that, but to face them with integrity, grace, and compassion. My boyfriend has been so supportive of everything and he really has saved me. And I literally was thinking about this a week about... about how he really saved me in the nick of time. Timing He really opened many doors and he was only merely being himself. I am so ever blessed and thankful. I know we are in partnership together this lifetime and I am thrilled about our future.

The second card in your reading is the present, revealing what is happening around you.

Two of Wands

The Two of Wands

In the present position, the II of Wands indicates we have created our own approach to the problems at hand. Perhaps we have just set into motion a new enterprise, and we stand at a high position of power over the future. Though, the road ahead is full of unforeseen issues, and we must apply our attention to keep from getting lost on the trail. In setting out on our own, we hold the world in our palm, and now must sway others to see it from our elevated outlook over the land.

When the II of Wands appears in the present position, we have decided to embark on our own unique approach toward the future. We must now dare to dream big and see to the end of the enterprise we have set into motion.

The third card in your Tarot reading reveals the future if you continue down the path you are headed on. Remember, you have the power to shape your future as you wish!

Four of Wands

The Four of Wands

In the future position, the IV of Wands points to a period when we are about to break free and secure victory. All the work, time and energy put into a creative enterprise or endeavor has finally paid off! Perhaps, we are about to receive a promotion, a bonus or see to the end of a profitable artistic project. No matter the case, we will find no other way to react to this outcome than to celebrate. We delight in the achievement of personal goals and open new possibilities toward the future. Gifts and rewards may be given to us at this time.

When the IV of Wands falls in the future position, we may just be surprised at the greatness of our own achievement. We have seen a project or situation through until the end, and reflect on all that was sacrificed toward this final outcome.

Your free Tarot reading:

  

Overall Interpretation

The neutrality of the Two of Wands sandwiched between the positivity of the Knight of Cups and the Four of Wands tells us that even though things seem uncertain to you now, you are heading towards a favourable outcome. Keep on your path, and be positive.

Endings bring new beginnings, and the successful completion of a project, or a relationship, will bring you a profound sense of security, harmony, and inner peace. Moving, or buying a house may also be in your future.

Hello Well-Wishers!

I just wanted to post an update here because it's been over a month! :)

I currently have a headache but that's okay... I will be alright.

I have been a lot busier lately and it's been good. This means I am finally starting to really take responsibility for my life and shape the world the way I want to see it. I am very blessed at this moment and I really feel incredibly thankful.

There's a lot of little things going on and I feel like, in the next 6 months, life is going to be even more amazing then what it is now. I am just dipping my feet and following my joy!

So I want to document this beginning because I have been blessed with a few opportunities and now that I have opened up and stated to some of my friends my intentions... I am getting support and I never knew how before but people are wanting to help!

There's a lot going on and I need to stay focused. I cannot let my moods get into the way of my life... I'm pretty certain that I am done exploring that avenue but if it happens then so be it.

Currently... I have 3 main projects going on that will all contribute to a better life for myself. However, I will go through all parts of my life:

1. Health/Fitness:

I just bought a gym pass yesterday and so I will be starting to work out today. My goal is to feel healthier, look slimmer, and to be a better physical version of me now. I want to be able to feel confident wearing a bathing suit because I will be hitting up some sunny beaches in the next 2 months... so it's serious! I have also put money into juicing and trying not to starve myself unintentionally.

2. Relationships

It's almost my 10 years anniversary with my boyfriend. My priority is to be able to provide him love and support always and to remind him that even though I am getting busier, I am not ignoring him. He's a kid at heart... And also trying to be patient with his grumpiness. It's interesting to see the shift... he's become a lot grumpier. Well, that's what love is. You have to deal with your partner's moods. Just don't take it personally and tell them when their mood is affecting yours.

3. Mental Health:

I have a life coach now and just started this week. I am in the process of exploring more of myself but with the assistant of someone whom I have just met. I am so thankful for this experience as I believe it will be life-changing. The next 3 months, I know will come by fast but I am savoring this moment. My mind space is a lot clearer and like I said before, I am moody. But I am now keeping busy, so my mind can take a break. I am quickly conquering my fears... I am being challenged to come out of my comfort zone from supportive people. I can do it. I know I can. I must. Why? Because it's my passion right now and I just have to go for it.

4. Career

I have decided to launch my teaching business! I have decided to be committed to it and to give it a try. That means putting my heart and soul into it. I don't know where it will lead but all I know is that in 6 months' time... it will not be like where I am right now. I can do it. The universe supports me in all the thoughts that I make. I am learning how to be an entrepreneur, a better communicator, and someone who is not afraid to be themselves. There's so much to do... it's a little overwhelming but I feel like I can do it. Once I look into it a little more, I will be able to shape it to what I want. There's never certainty in anything. I just got to give it a try!