- All types of Abuse
- Depression
- Mid-Life Crisis
- Dysfunctional Family
- Alcoholic Family Members
- Arrogant Self-Righteous Parent 1
- Victimizing People Pleaser Parent 2
- Non-interfering Sibling
- Delusional 'old ways' family members
- Continuous Family Drama
- Perfectionism
- Personal Dysfunctional Thoughts
Um... what else?
While this is my life story which I can build upon... I rarely disclose this to anyone. I mean, it sounds really crazy. I mean, I think a lot of people go through this stuff. No one knows this stuff entirely, except for one time when I went to see an intuitive healer and she asked me if I was sexually abused and well since I never told anyone, I would have never known that she would have known so I know she was really telling the truth.
But I'm not afraid anymore and I do not go onwards with a blaming or guilty feeling route. In fact, I think I went through these scenarios to learn a lot of Earth stuff all at once and it allows me to relate to many people easier. Also, being a super-sensitive person means I learn even more than just what happened but how they feel from just thinking about other people's situations. I say I have a pretty good grasp of shit that happens in life. So how do we transform it? How do we make it better for ourselves?
You know.. this is a transformative era. It's really time to take responsibility for everything that goes on in our lives. I mean... why would these bad things happen to us? No one deserves this! I certainly don't feel like I did but it happened. Why? Because we are on Earth. On Earth, there are a lot of messed up people. No offense. But sincerely, messed up people who continue to perpetuate their fears, bad habits, and their ideologies onto people. Why are some people placed in war-torn countries? Why are people being born in starving nations? I don't know why... and why would God put them there? I have no idea. I just wish I knew but I have no idea. Why did I go through so much suffering? I don't know. Why would I put myself in those scenarios? Yes, some of these fears do perpetuate from time to time but I am learning to let it go.
All I know is that at any point in time, I need to shift my attitude. I need to alter my present reality which will include a subtle or major shift in our present values, ideologies, and belief systems. We cannot change our past but we certainly can our perspective on it. Let it ruin it for you or let it empower you to be better than where you were. How will you let your experiences affect your life? I just want to say that it's okay if you feel you want to play the role of the victim... it's okay if you want to play the role of the perpetrator. Why do I say that? Because that is your free will. That's what Earth is... as beautiful as the planet is and how kind it is... human beings are the ones who have free will. So, there is a role and purpose for every being on Earth. As horrible as it is... that is how it is. However, it does not negate us from stepping up and taking action. For without people who protest or stand up for their rights then no change can occur. I applaud those who believe in humanity and have faith. They are our earth angels and something that we can look as for an example. It is only through immense suffering that allows for changes to occur. BUT... we are in an information technology age and we need to seek out answers for ourselves. We need to be curious, inquisitive, and ever wanting to grow, learn, experience, and expand. It is important to be to continually look for alternatives. To never buy into one reality and assume that there is all that there is. I am sorry I can not protect, save, or heal everyone. I can only wish that people can learn to protect, save, and heal themselves. For then, that act as a service to others. For we are always inspired by others... so be the inspiration. Go for it!
I do not feel sorry for myself so I do not ask people to feel sorry for me. This is my life and I have gone through a lot but I have also transformed my past. I do not let the past haunt me, instead I continue to live my life with compassion, love, and forgiveness.
That's all.
Sharing is caring. I might not make sense but again this is for me as well.
