Sharing some thoughts and feelings...

Today I am thankful for... Sunshine. I am thankful for the bountiful sunshine... who does not know that I truly am thankful for it's presence. Comfort. I am thankful for a home to live in. A place where I can comfortably sit and think freely without constant interruptions. My meditation. My own space of creative expressions and thinking space. Universe. I am thankful to be alive this time with the knowledge that the universe supports my dreams, goals, and desires. Boyfriend. I am thankful for the most loving, kind, and fun boyfriend who is growing to become a more spiritually conscious person each day. He teaches me how to live in the moment and to relax. Time. I am giving myself time to expand, explore, and grow. I do not conform to the fear of running out of time to do things. Yes, there is 24 hours a day but I don't let it control me. - - - - - Living here on earth has been a whirlwind journey full of mostly ups and downs. I know my purpose has not been fulfilled but I feel that in the last couple of years, I have accomplished a lot with my mind. I have shifted through many parallel universes from living in fear-based realities to zen-like realities. It is astonishing how all these realities can exist in one's mind. I am thankful that I did not get lost in these realities and I am working to find my balance points and that is the eye of the storm. Everything in this world is based on your belief systems, your preferences, and your expectations. That's it and what energy you left it last at. Today I am feeling like a blank canvas... I know I am the things that I am accomplished and experienced but I feel free. I feel unconfined. I feel light and airy. Today, I feel like a balloon. An analogy that my boyfriend sometimes gives me because I drift away into the higher realms of thinking. I don't know why... I feel comfortable there. Being at peace, in harmony, and in full appreciation. That is where I truly am. I am thankful that I am able to recreate these experiences here on earth. Just now, how do I apply it to being on earth where a lot of contrast and polarity takes place. I know that is why I am here on Earth... I sometimes just want to instantly manifest into the next thing that I am meant to do. Would it be much easier than trying to navigate through a sandstorm? I am drawing a blank now. It's like I want to write more but my mind is just drawing a blank. I feel sometimes I am in a state of blankness. It's great but sometimes that means a lot of inaction. Sometimes I wish I was suffering so that I would be fighting for whatever cause that I need to. But I know that is not what I prefer and well I just don't believe you have to suffer to get what you want. Am I now creating a background story of suffering before I fully shine? It's sad to think this way but sometimes I feel like I am consciously holding myself back so that I can relate to others. It really just does not make sense. I know struggles make a great story. I have struggles lots before so I know the powers of using that allegory... I think it all falls back to all the stories that we use to study in high school English and Literature classes where the hero must struggle before attaining victory. Why? I mean, in reality they chose to struggle in such a way because we chose to view them struggling. Why does Earth value struggle so much? So that we can diminish ourselves and relate to others... Probably. See, this is another belief that I am just tackling and writing this has helped me release this. I no longer buy into the struggle to success sequence to... wherever it is that I am going. I am just going to be me. I am going to accept where I am at this moment. I accept the choices that I have made to lead me to where I am. I forgive myself for not being like my peers who are outwardly seemingly problem-free. No one is perfect. I am not. If I fail, I just keep going. If I am on hiatus then I accept it as part of my life journey. Things are always shifting and changing. Many parallel universes are created and I get the freedom to choose anyone of them. I know how suffering feels like, I know how rejection feels like, I know how doing your best and not succeeding feels like... I have a wealth of knowledge to share. I do not follow other people's timelines. I am free to create my world and make it work the way I have always wanted it to. I am so thankful today.

Bashar - How To Manifest Instantly

Today I am feeling thankful for all the free uploaded videos on Youtube that people have put up based on their passion to share their acquired knowledge. These videos have completely accelerated and shifted the way I think and feel. I feel truly self-empowered.



I felt inspired to do a quick blog today about synchronicities & instant manifestations...

Here's an anecdote on instant manifestation...

A month ago, a number of people were telling me how they had been seeing huge spiders going into their homes. These spiders are like the size of a small tennis ball. I have never seen spiders like these before and so I had a keen interest and question where I thought... I wonder if I will see a big spider too? I sort of expected that it would happen because by now nature responds quite quickly to my requests.

Of course, two days later... I see a huge spider in my bathroom walls. I have no idea how it got there. I was really surprised yet I had a sense of knowing that it would show up. I didn't kill it. I just let it be where it needed to be and after that day I never saw the spider again. Nature usually responds to me in less than a week! Anything that I desire to connect with... it appears. For when these moments happen, I am literally in awe. Yes, even a silly little thing like spiders. How do I translate this to other manifestations in the physical world?