Over the weekend and despite all the family drama... My boyfriend surprised me with a birthday party!
It made me realize how much of light he has given me. He has uplifted in more ways than he will ever know but I realized that he is always looking out for my BEST interest. He truly cares deeply about me and I have to say, with our relationship, we delve into the moments and we go with the flow. What I mean is that I don't let any part of myself (negatively) get in the way of things. I openly share my thoughts and feelings and he understands that those are just things that I am going through. I mean, we have been together for 10 years so we have progressed a lot in a decade. I am just so thankful for all his love! He really makes all my dreams come true...
I haven't really organized a birthday party since my 21st birthday and it has been a while. I really did not expect anything this year. I don't expect anything at all for any birthdays. However, this year I was thinking that I should have a birthday party but other things got in the way and I slowly began thinking that it was too late to plan something and who do I invite? Should I do a girl's night or a bigger party or do them in separate groups? So, I overwhelmed myself.
Hence, I was so surprised when I saw all of my friends! I had told my bf that I really wanted an experiential birthday party - where people can do something and he made it happen! I just casually mentioned it with no expectation. It was just a thought because that's more fun! We all made pizzas and it was a lot of fun! :*)
I am so thankful for all my friends and others who I did not expect to be so kind to me. I even received gifts and for that, I was even more truly blessed because I know people are spending money already and taking their day off to be there. So, I was really surprised! I just haven't given gifts in a long time and it reminded me that I too need to be more giving - in any way. It was kind of weird... a lot of things that I have always wanted suddenly manifested!
It was like...how did they read my mind? I just find it amazing and everything I receive I absolutely loved it! I felt the sincerity of each present and that really warmed my heart.
Tuesday 25 March 2014
Sunday 23 March 2014
I am finally letting go...
Hello Well-wishers!
I have been going through a lot in the last couple of days... It's been interesting. Before I explain what's been going on... I am currently making an appeal to my family. Actually, I am not communicating with my parents because I am sick and tired of the way they talk to each other. I am withdrawing communications with them for now...and even though today is my birthday and so is my mom's...I am standing strong on my actions. It's been a hard lesson to learn but I finally got the idea of not caring so much.
My dad is complete mute, arrogant, emotion-less expressing and completely rude and self-righteous. My mom is a good natured women but a people pleaser, tendency to over dramaticize everything, and complain thus spilling out negativity. I am reminded to have compassion for my parents but this is so incredibly hard... Especially when I believe that human beings need to be constantly evolving. So, I don't understand why people don't work out their issues and try to heal and grow and become a better person. I just don't understand this concept. I know it might sound naive but I am a very hopeful person. I always believe that if anything, I can have at least an impact on my parents...to guide them to new ways of thinking. But the last day and so, instead of being quiet about it, I spoke up and I was very forceful and demanding for an explanation for why this is. Why am I in such a polarized family? How can someone be so cold? How am I suppose to help my parents evolve when one of them is so absolutely cannot beared to be around. And how do I deal with a mom who consistently take the blame for herself and demand that she is the root of all these issues.. so we have one parent who takes the blame and the other who blames everyone else but themselves. It is so hard to get into their frequencies because each time I try I have to try to get to them but I can't. It upsets me and makes me feel powerless because innately I know they have chosen their personas...however still I believe in parallel realities. This sense of alienation in my family has always been felt... they really don't understand where I come from and I really don't understand where they come from. It's like I deliberately chose this family to learn about differences, polarities, and two opposite extremes. Almost like a war... my goodness. How can such things exists...? But they do.
I have never felt betrayal in my life but yesterday was the first time. I am transforming it as an observation of my life and I will not carry those resentments but I finally felt what human beings feel when they feel that way. It is not a nice feeling to have and you certainly don't expect it to come from your family. Truly, there are a copious amount of miscommunications and I am tired of it. I don't want to come back next life time to deal with it either. It is life draining and completely a reality that I get. That's just who they are. I cannot change who they are and they will never be able to change who I am. I just absolutely don't get my parents. I have compassion but I don't understand my dad.
For now I am making to a statement to the universe. I no longer want to be responsible for his ascension and higher self growth. I don't know how to do it in this physical reality. I'm sure there are a million ways but right now I don't feel there is anything that I can do. I need to let it go and stop judging it for what it is. All I can express for him is compassion... because I know he had a tough life. And all I can do also is to connect with his higher self. I can not at this point access his physical self unless by some kind of divine intervention from his higher self, souls, and guardian angels that he wants to explore that concept of letting go and being able to express himself. I do not want to bear the responsibility of helping him evolve. I feel that I personally take too much emotional care for my parents and I cannot handle it anymore. I realized that I started feeling 'guilty' for not being able to help my parents but I cannot let that over take my ability to be compassionate. At some point in adult life, I have to let it go. I also do not want to come back and have to deal with this again. I know everyone has dysfunction in their family... and I didn't realized how much I went through also. Dysfunction breeds dysfunction and I pray that I can relinquish and overcome all my fears. I pray for my parents and for their ability to learn to cooperate, love, and be able to work with one another. Everyone wants the best for their parents.. in fact I don't even care for their approval or support. I don't. I don't need it. I fulfill and nourish my own soul because I can't depend on anyone but myself to make myself feel better. I don't know what's going to happen next... I know my brother and boyfriend supports me. Well, I certainly support myself. If they think I have caused a rift in their family, then hopefully one day they will know my intentions. I always come from good intentions and yes, I admit I like to shake things up when there is no change. I am not afraid to speak my voice and each day I feel like I am becoming more empowered. No longer will I be okay with old ways of thinking. This is not how I envision my reality to be. I have to realize that in this life journey, I cannot force my parents to be in a certain way. As much as I want a happy family, it's all an illusion. Real families have issues and I am no longer afraid to let the world know. I am not afraid to break through the barriers of anonymity and suffering behind closed doors. Feelings are important and I never learned how to fully express myself. With a mute and arrogant father, I didn't learn anything from him except to not be like him. And with a mother who always asserted her righteousness but in a more positive way and wanting to please other people...I too learned that if others are happy around me then I would be happy. But if others were not, then something is wrong with me. When there is absolutely nothing NOTHING wrong with me.
I was thinking how hard this journey through life is... and before you judge me and say oh there's other people who have been through worse. Well yes, there are. Hence, I am very thankful and appreciative always. I truly am but sometimes I just gotta vent.
A few things I have learned from this scenario...
There's one thing that my dad said which rung true: "Don't be like me!" Yup, he's right. He's so hurt that he cannot even put together what the pain was. I have a lot of compassion for what has happened to him... trust me I do. But, we have to evolve as human beings and it's time to garner that power of expression. If we cannot express and fully be ourselves, then we cannot be the best that we can be. Our potentiality is infinite... and our higher selves know that. I wish their higher selves would connect with them and I am sending my angels to their way. I believe in the power of prayer and maybe that's all I can do...
I am reminded by this quote...
"In a gentle way, you can shake the world" - Gandhi
Well, instead of gently shaking ... I shook everyone up! Whoops... I got learn from the ET and our space friends. Non-interference. Boy, I just like to dip my nose in everything! Haha...
Thanks for reading! Sending everyone out there prayers...
Oh it's my birthday today and now I am going to go out! I'm not going to let my parents relationships ruin my life.
I have been going through a lot in the last couple of days... It's been interesting. Before I explain what's been going on... I am currently making an appeal to my family. Actually, I am not communicating with my parents because I am sick and tired of the way they talk to each other. I am withdrawing communications with them for now...and even though today is my birthday and so is my mom's...I am standing strong on my actions. It's been a hard lesson to learn but I finally got the idea of not caring so much.
My dad is complete mute, arrogant, emotion-less expressing and completely rude and self-righteous. My mom is a good natured women but a people pleaser, tendency to over dramaticize everything, and complain thus spilling out negativity. I am reminded to have compassion for my parents but this is so incredibly hard... Especially when I believe that human beings need to be constantly evolving. So, I don't understand why people don't work out their issues and try to heal and grow and become a better person. I just don't understand this concept. I know it might sound naive but I am a very hopeful person. I always believe that if anything, I can have at least an impact on my parents...to guide them to new ways of thinking. But the last day and so, instead of being quiet about it, I spoke up and I was very forceful and demanding for an explanation for why this is. Why am I in such a polarized family? How can someone be so cold? How am I suppose to help my parents evolve when one of them is so absolutely cannot beared to be around. And how do I deal with a mom who consistently take the blame for herself and demand that she is the root of all these issues.. so we have one parent who takes the blame and the other who blames everyone else but themselves. It is so hard to get into their frequencies because each time I try I have to try to get to them but I can't. It upsets me and makes me feel powerless because innately I know they have chosen their personas...however still I believe in parallel realities. This sense of alienation in my family has always been felt... they really don't understand where I come from and I really don't understand where they come from. It's like I deliberately chose this family to learn about differences, polarities, and two opposite extremes. Almost like a war... my goodness. How can such things exists...? But they do.
I have never felt betrayal in my life but yesterday was the first time. I am transforming it as an observation of my life and I will not carry those resentments but I finally felt what human beings feel when they feel that way. It is not a nice feeling to have and you certainly don't expect it to come from your family. Truly, there are a copious amount of miscommunications and I am tired of it. I don't want to come back next life time to deal with it either. It is life draining and completely a reality that I get. That's just who they are. I cannot change who they are and they will never be able to change who I am. I just absolutely don't get my parents. I have compassion but I don't understand my dad.
For now I am making to a statement to the universe. I no longer want to be responsible for his ascension and higher self growth. I don't know how to do it in this physical reality. I'm sure there are a million ways but right now I don't feel there is anything that I can do. I need to let it go and stop judging it for what it is. All I can express for him is compassion... because I know he had a tough life. And all I can do also is to connect with his higher self. I can not at this point access his physical self unless by some kind of divine intervention from his higher self, souls, and guardian angels that he wants to explore that concept of letting go and being able to express himself. I do not want to bear the responsibility of helping him evolve. I feel that I personally take too much emotional care for my parents and I cannot handle it anymore. I realized that I started feeling 'guilty' for not being able to help my parents but I cannot let that over take my ability to be compassionate. At some point in adult life, I have to let it go. I also do not want to come back and have to deal with this again. I know everyone has dysfunction in their family... and I didn't realized how much I went through also. Dysfunction breeds dysfunction and I pray that I can relinquish and overcome all my fears. I pray for my parents and for their ability to learn to cooperate, love, and be able to work with one another. Everyone wants the best for their parents.. in fact I don't even care for their approval or support. I don't. I don't need it. I fulfill and nourish my own soul because I can't depend on anyone but myself to make myself feel better. I don't know what's going to happen next... I know my brother and boyfriend supports me. Well, I certainly support myself. If they think I have caused a rift in their family, then hopefully one day they will know my intentions. I always come from good intentions and yes, I admit I like to shake things up when there is no change. I am not afraid to speak my voice and each day I feel like I am becoming more empowered. No longer will I be okay with old ways of thinking. This is not how I envision my reality to be. I have to realize that in this life journey, I cannot force my parents to be in a certain way. As much as I want a happy family, it's all an illusion. Real families have issues and I am no longer afraid to let the world know. I am not afraid to break through the barriers of anonymity and suffering behind closed doors. Feelings are important and I never learned how to fully express myself. With a mute and arrogant father, I didn't learn anything from him except to not be like him. And with a mother who always asserted her righteousness but in a more positive way and wanting to please other people...I too learned that if others are happy around me then I would be happy. But if others were not, then something is wrong with me. When there is absolutely nothing NOTHING wrong with me.
I was thinking how hard this journey through life is... and before you judge me and say oh there's other people who have been through worse. Well yes, there are. Hence, I am very thankful and appreciative always. I truly am but sometimes I just gotta vent.
A few things I have learned from this scenario...
- I have to get my life and shit together.
- I have to let go of trying to control my parents even if it is from very good intentions.
- I have to focus on myself.
- I have to persevere and have the courage to be myself.
- I am no longer responsible for my parents and especially my dad's direct spiritual growth. I do not want to bare the burden of it anymore. I give back the responsibility to God and let the universe assist him. I just can't... it just tears me apart me seeing that we are so disillusioned here but this is why we are here to learn. I cannot be responsible for my parents. I just have to let it go before I become like them.
- I will overcome my own issues and do the best I can to be me.
There's one thing that my dad said which rung true: "Don't be like me!" Yup, he's right. He's so hurt that he cannot even put together what the pain was. I have a lot of compassion for what has happened to him... trust me I do. But, we have to evolve as human beings and it's time to garner that power of expression. If we cannot express and fully be ourselves, then we cannot be the best that we can be. Our potentiality is infinite... and our higher selves know that. I wish their higher selves would connect with them and I am sending my angels to their way. I believe in the power of prayer and maybe that's all I can do...
I am reminded by this quote...
"In a gentle way, you can shake the world" - Gandhi
Well, instead of gently shaking ... I shook everyone up! Whoops... I got learn from the ET and our space friends. Non-interference. Boy, I just like to dip my nose in everything! Haha...
Thanks for reading! Sending everyone out there prayers...
Oh it's my birthday today and now I am going to go out! I'm not going to let my parents relationships ruin my life.
Sunday 16 March 2014
These are my thoughts...
Things that I am learning about lately...
It just occurred to me that I always feel like I have to justify that these are my thoughts. I guess it is because I don't know if other people feel the same way and a part of me fears that people will think that I am weird. Ha! I am sort of crazy - out of the box - creative person so...
Trust. Go with the Flow. And Letting Go of the Control.
I am a control freak! I mean...c'mon now. I am obviously try to learn how to control my emotions and everything in my life so I have control issues. I learned that today with everything that I am doing with teaching... I allow people to help me and to fulfill my vision. Whenever I have been feeling that I must do more, I calm myself down and say to myself... "The universe I trust the universe...everything will be alright...i allow the flow to come to my life... trust. I trust that everything will be work out great!"It is such a relief when you realize that your reality is just how you perceive it. If you allow the little details to get to you while you are already on your way then you are now being in the moment. Why put so much work and effort and then not relax into it? There's the paradox and when you are in the centre point then the universe always bring to you the best reality outcome.
Subconscious mind. Lucid Dreaming. Empowered Being. Turning something fearful to positive.
I haven't been able to sleep much. I think it has to do with all the thinking or interests I have in my mind. So sometimes when I sleep really late and have to wake up, that's when I get the most lucid state of dreams. It's almost like the inception movie! Like this one time, I was in a dream within a dream and within a dream. I kept waking up from each dream and finally I woke up to this reality! It was really cool... I was in the same room but each time I woke up I thought I was really in that reality only until I finally woke up and came back to this reality. I learned from that dream that there are multiple parallel realities happening at the same time... just which one am I choosing to wake up and participate in?
So I got side tracked from the original story I wanted to talk about... The other day, I only slept for 2 hours... late night sleeping and early awakening puts my body in a state of distress. I know so because I mentally tell my body that I have to wake up at a certain time so it knows. Anyways... I had some really strange dreams. Dream 1: I was being molested or raped. I mean... I didn't feel like it was completely sexual but some person was on top of me and holding me down. It was very forceful and a very unpleasant feeling. It was also very dark and I was screaming. Somewhere in my mind... I started thinking 'Wake Up! Wake Up!" I was literally screaming at myself in the dream to wake the fuck up. It was so strong that I did wake up. But, I soon realized that I either had slipped back into that reality or a parallel reality just next to it because again I was being held down. This time it was a similar scenario but it was after I had realized that I had woken up already. Then I was thinking... my god why am I in this scenario again so I was screaming at the top of my lungs to wake up! "Wake UP!!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE THE FUCK UP!!!" I finally awoke and thank goodness I was finally awake. So I was kind of shaken by that dream because I immediately thought... what the fuck was that about? And ofcourse my mind was swirling... was it...
- another parallel reality
- a past life experience
- an encounter with other beings where the energies were misinterpreted
- a current co-existing parallel reality (going through someone else's reality)
- my own imagination
- an exchange of spiritual energy
- fears played out
etc... etc...
Anyways, I don't know and I will probably never figure it out. However, I realized that I did not fear the situation. What could of been interpreted as a fearful experience...well I have decided to turn it to a positive learning experience. As I know that everything that we do or experience here on earth is about learning more about ourselves. From my conclusion, I realized that I have the ability to shift realities. I don't really know how to explain myself but what I learned is that I have the power to create my reality. Luckily, this happened in dream world and I was able to lucidly wake myself up. What did I shift? How did I shift? I simply shifted my focus - thus by waking myself up. I remember Bashar saying that we are living the dream and reality is just a dream that we are asleep in. It's kind of confusing but basically instead of channeling fear, I felt empowered. I mean, I woke myself up and told myself to shift. I have been asking to learn more about how to shift parallel realities and working on my mentality so maybe this is a way for me to learn. No hard feelings.
Dimensional Shifts. Parallel Universes. MH370. Plane Vanishing. Prayer. Love to all!
So... I have been obsessed lately with the Malaysia MH370 plane disappearance. To be honest, I don't really look into the news too much as a lot of the stuff is either depressing, disillusioned, and or overly dramatic. No offense. But my goodness... I am so very intrigued. When it first disappeared, I just had the inkling thought that it had shifted to another parallel universe. I have no idea why that planed shifted. I have no idea what the higher purpose is. However, I do know that since my current 'inquiry' is on parallel shifting and realities... it is ever so present to me that we are powerful and that we can shift. I mean, a huge plane filled with 200 people just suddenly disappearing with no trace... Bermuda Triangle similarities? I have been praying for the families and the passengers. I know they are alive and they are probably just very confused and I really hope our space friends are helping them in any way possible and that they be open for help. I mean, our space friends already know how to open dimensional portals and etc... we just really need to work together and learn how to! I hope the world will soon know about our space friends so that we can truly transcend to higher beings. I believe everything happens for a reason and although I feel like we may never find them but they may find a way to come back to us. Who knows? Anything can happen as reality is now very fluid in my mind. I mean, the fact that they could possibly go back in time or be forward in time is mind blowing. Our whole idea of reality can no longer sustain the one dimensional linear time frame... Clearly, there's more to it than just 'us' here. Anyone who listens and looks deep within will realize that there's something more out there. Anyways, I am not here to convince anyone. Ha! I just believe what I want to believe... So, for now I am sending love and prayers to them. If I knew how to navigate through portals...c'mon I know somehow out there does! So how can we as a society go forth with this path? I bet there are some people out there who know...
By the way, I do not buy into conspiracy theories that are based out of fears. I have no time for that and it is something that I was very drawn into at first when I stepped into my spiritual path. But now I have moved past that even though I will acknowledge their reality. Because every reality exists so we cannot judge their existent. It exists for a purpose. The purpose serves those who are in the same frequency... plus so many people base their businesses, life stories, etc... on from fear and so they share with us their points of view. As an observer... we can all learn from each other whether it is negative or positive.
Some of my favourite quotes at the moment...
It just occurred to me that I always feel like I have to justify that these are my thoughts. I guess it is because I don't know if other people feel the same way and a part of me fears that people will think that I am weird. Ha! I am sort of crazy - out of the box - creative person so...
Trust. Go with the Flow. And Letting Go of the Control.
I am a control freak! I mean...c'mon now. I am obviously try to learn how to control my emotions and everything in my life so I have control issues. I learned that today with everything that I am doing with teaching... I allow people to help me and to fulfill my vision. Whenever I have been feeling that I must do more, I calm myself down and say to myself... "The universe I trust the universe...everything will be alright...i allow the flow to come to my life... trust. I trust that everything will be work out great!"It is such a relief when you realize that your reality is just how you perceive it. If you allow the little details to get to you while you are already on your way then you are now being in the moment. Why put so much work and effort and then not relax into it? There's the paradox and when you are in the centre point then the universe always bring to you the best reality outcome.
Subconscious mind. Lucid Dreaming. Empowered Being. Turning something fearful to positive.
I haven't been able to sleep much. I think it has to do with all the thinking or interests I have in my mind. So sometimes when I sleep really late and have to wake up, that's when I get the most lucid state of dreams. It's almost like the inception movie! Like this one time, I was in a dream within a dream and within a dream. I kept waking up from each dream and finally I woke up to this reality! It was really cool... I was in the same room but each time I woke up I thought I was really in that reality only until I finally woke up and came back to this reality. I learned from that dream that there are multiple parallel realities happening at the same time... just which one am I choosing to wake up and participate in?
So I got side tracked from the original story I wanted to talk about... The other day, I only slept for 2 hours... late night sleeping and early awakening puts my body in a state of distress. I know so because I mentally tell my body that I have to wake up at a certain time so it knows. Anyways... I had some really strange dreams. Dream 1: I was being molested or raped. I mean... I didn't feel like it was completely sexual but some person was on top of me and holding me down. It was very forceful and a very unpleasant feeling. It was also very dark and I was screaming. Somewhere in my mind... I started thinking 'Wake Up! Wake Up!" I was literally screaming at myself in the dream to wake the fuck up. It was so strong that I did wake up. But, I soon realized that I either had slipped back into that reality or a parallel reality just next to it because again I was being held down. This time it was a similar scenario but it was after I had realized that I had woken up already. Then I was thinking... my god why am I in this scenario again so I was screaming at the top of my lungs to wake up! "Wake UP!!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE THE FUCK UP!!!" I finally awoke and thank goodness I was finally awake. So I was kind of shaken by that dream because I immediately thought... what the fuck was that about? And ofcourse my mind was swirling... was it...
- another parallel reality
- a past life experience
- an encounter with other beings where the energies were misinterpreted
- a current co-existing parallel reality (going through someone else's reality)
- my own imagination
- an exchange of spiritual energy
- fears played out
etc... etc...
Anyways, I don't know and I will probably never figure it out. However, I realized that I did not fear the situation. What could of been interpreted as a fearful experience...well I have decided to turn it to a positive learning experience. As I know that everything that we do or experience here on earth is about learning more about ourselves. From my conclusion, I realized that I have the ability to shift realities. I don't really know how to explain myself but what I learned is that I have the power to create my reality. Luckily, this happened in dream world and I was able to lucidly wake myself up. What did I shift? How did I shift? I simply shifted my focus - thus by waking myself up. I remember Bashar saying that we are living the dream and reality is just a dream that we are asleep in. It's kind of confusing but basically instead of channeling fear, I felt empowered. I mean, I woke myself up and told myself to shift. I have been asking to learn more about how to shift parallel realities and working on my mentality so maybe this is a way for me to learn. No hard feelings.
Dimensional Shifts. Parallel Universes. MH370. Plane Vanishing. Prayer. Love to all!
So... I have been obsessed lately with the Malaysia MH370 plane disappearance. To be honest, I don't really look into the news too much as a lot of the stuff is either depressing, disillusioned, and or overly dramatic. No offense. But my goodness... I am so very intrigued. When it first disappeared, I just had the inkling thought that it had shifted to another parallel universe. I have no idea why that planed shifted. I have no idea what the higher purpose is. However, I do know that since my current 'inquiry' is on parallel shifting and realities... it is ever so present to me that we are powerful and that we can shift. I mean, a huge plane filled with 200 people just suddenly disappearing with no trace... Bermuda Triangle similarities? I have been praying for the families and the passengers. I know they are alive and they are probably just very confused and I really hope our space friends are helping them in any way possible and that they be open for help. I mean, our space friends already know how to open dimensional portals and etc... we just really need to work together and learn how to! I hope the world will soon know about our space friends so that we can truly transcend to higher beings. I believe everything happens for a reason and although I feel like we may never find them but they may find a way to come back to us. Who knows? Anything can happen as reality is now very fluid in my mind. I mean, the fact that they could possibly go back in time or be forward in time is mind blowing. Our whole idea of reality can no longer sustain the one dimensional linear time frame... Clearly, there's more to it than just 'us' here. Anyone who listens and looks deep within will realize that there's something more out there. Anyways, I am not here to convince anyone. Ha! I just believe what I want to believe... So, for now I am sending love and prayers to them. If I knew how to navigate through portals...c'mon I know somehow out there does! So how can we as a society go forth with this path? I bet there are some people out there who know...
By the way, I do not buy into conspiracy theories that are based out of fears. I have no time for that and it is something that I was very drawn into at first when I stepped into my spiritual path. But now I have moved past that even though I will acknowledge their reality. Because every reality exists so we cannot judge their existent. It exists for a purpose. The purpose serves those who are in the same frequency... plus so many people base their businesses, life stories, etc... on from fear and so they share with us their points of view. As an observer... we can all learn from each other whether it is negative or positive.
Some of my favourite quotes at the moment...
"This too shall pass."
“In a gentle way, you can shake the world.” - Gandhi
ho'oponopono
"I am sorry
Please forgive me
I love you
Thank you"
"Select
Project
Eject
Collect?
"Whenever you are, and whatever you do, be in love." - Rumi
"Circumstances don’t matter. Only my state of being does." - Bashar
"So what?" - Bashar
"Have faith."
"Are you having fun?"
Tuesday 4 March 2014
Courage
Today, I am praying for courage.
The courage to take a leap of faith. The courage to follow my passions. The courage to be myself.
I am afraid of rejection and failure. Sometimes, I am afraid of not being supported EVEN THOUGH I know that the universe supports me at all times. It's almost as if I allow myself to be scared so that I can stay comfortable at where I am at.
Today, I am praying for courage.
For myself, for others, and for anyone who desires to live their life authentically.
I am asking God/Universe, angels, my higher-self, my guides, my multi-dimensional family for support. I deserve it. I know I can do it. I have value and can add value to the world. I need the emotional support from within myself. I want to channel my inner Goddess and power within.
Today, I am praying for courage.
I need courage to overcome all my fears. All I want to do is accomplish my dreams and goals. I am clear on my intentions and I know that all I need is a shift in my attitude, mindset, and beliefs.
I believe in myself.
I am sorry.
Please forgive me.
I love you.
Thank you.
As I am writing this, I just thought of ho'oponopono... I remember doing a meditation last week and Dr. Lew was leading the meditation. He wanted us to connect with our inner child by imagining yourself standing next to your inner child. It really made me tear up because with all the encouragement that I give to children, I sometimes don't give them to myself. So, when I was imagining the little 5 year old me, I got really emotional. I realized I have been through a lot in this lifetime... a lot of things that I do not let them effect me now. I could of taken any of those situations and made it my personal life story, and I did choose one. And it could of been a lot more emotional. I wish, I could of been there for my little 5 year old self but I couldn't because I am here now. So, I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. Thank you. Now, as a grown woman I have forgiven and let go a lot of the pass. I view those moments as momentarily realities and I am thankful for the learning experiences. As I think about it, I know that it makes me a more compassionate person because I have personally lived through those experiences. Whatever the plan was for me here on Earth, I feel like everything has been accelerated for me. I am relearning and learning many things at once which is overwhelming but I'm starting to get the hang of it. The only thing I am working on is balancing my emotions. It is only me that is holding me back from being the true me in this reality.
Today, I am praying for courage.
God Bless!
The courage to take a leap of faith. The courage to follow my passions. The courage to be myself.
I am afraid of rejection and failure. Sometimes, I am afraid of not being supported EVEN THOUGH I know that the universe supports me at all times. It's almost as if I allow myself to be scared so that I can stay comfortable at where I am at.
Today, I am praying for courage.
For myself, for others, and for anyone who desires to live their life authentically.
I am asking God/Universe, angels, my higher-self, my guides, my multi-dimensional family for support. I deserve it. I know I can do it. I have value and can add value to the world. I need the emotional support from within myself. I want to channel my inner Goddess and power within.
Today, I am praying for courage.
I need courage to overcome all my fears. All I want to do is accomplish my dreams and goals. I am clear on my intentions and I know that all I need is a shift in my attitude, mindset, and beliefs.
I believe in myself.
I am sorry.
Please forgive me.
I love you.
Thank you.
As I am writing this, I just thought of ho'oponopono... I remember doing a meditation last week and Dr. Lew was leading the meditation. He wanted us to connect with our inner child by imagining yourself standing next to your inner child. It really made me tear up because with all the encouragement that I give to children, I sometimes don't give them to myself. So, when I was imagining the little 5 year old me, I got really emotional. I realized I have been through a lot in this lifetime... a lot of things that I do not let them effect me now. I could of taken any of those situations and made it my personal life story, and I did choose one. And it could of been a lot more emotional. I wish, I could of been there for my little 5 year old self but I couldn't because I am here now. So, I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. Thank you. Now, as a grown woman I have forgiven and let go a lot of the pass. I view those moments as momentarily realities and I am thankful for the learning experiences. As I think about it, I know that it makes me a more compassionate person because I have personally lived through those experiences. Whatever the plan was for me here on Earth, I feel like everything has been accelerated for me. I am relearning and learning many things at once which is overwhelming but I'm starting to get the hang of it. The only thing I am working on is balancing my emotions. It is only me that is holding me back from being the true me in this reality.
Today, I am praying for courage.
God Bless!
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